Feelin’ myself a lil :)

Taken January 9, 2015 - Such a transformation when I look back to my lowest point in 2009
February 9, 2015 


I haven’t taken a good close up photo of myself in quite awhile, and since my face has been so great I decided to celebrate that!

My skin has been doing really great lately… literally from my ankles up are clear and doing very well.  I’m still experiencing some itchness on my hands, lower part of my arms and lower part of my legs, but its becoming less and less in severity as I heal.  I keep telling myself, “it’s just my feet left, just my feet! Keep on pushing, continue staying faithful and positive.”  It’s amazing when I look back to photos, especially from 2009 when I was at my lowest point as far as physical and mental health.  I had months of chemo behind me, my hair was super short from chopping it off due to some of the hair loss I was experiencing, I barely had any eyebrows from scratching them off, my skin was brittle, super dry & itchy, dark and gray.  I had lost a significant amount of weight… the lowest I’ve ever been and I was just so unhappy with life, but trying to force on a smile.  You can see more photos of my transformation on the My Story page.  Now my skin is better than ever, (although its still got a tiny bit more to go) and I know that besides withdrawing from the topical & injected steroids, implementing my plant based diet and whole food supplements have helped in assisting healing.  My skin is so much healthier, my gut health is amazing, the whites of my eyes are brighter, my hair is stronger and shinier and even my nails are stronger!  I attribute this all to living holistically and feeding my body the best possible nutrients to heal through this process. 🙂

Currently, I’m still sticking it out at home… my feet are still in recovery mode (still slightly oozy, swollen at times, and I have this super painful sore on the BOTTOM of my foot… ugh) which makes it hard to put on socks and shoes because they will confine my foot to a tight space and irritate them which will set back the progress I’ve made thus far.  Although this is the current situation I’m in, I’m still pushing through everyday, and giving thanks for this process.  I’ve seen the transformation with my own eyes, and I have pictures to prove it… just that alone gives me gratitude.  It shows that as everyone likes to say, “healing happens” it just takes time… but when you can look back and see the transformations… it’s just amazing!

So yea, I’ve been feelin’ myself a lil, and I wanted to show off my most recent photo of myself! ❤

Overtime, I’ve truly learned to accept the process, surrender to it and keep the faith.  In this I’ve learned to love myself in whatever state I’m in at the moment, and know that I will only be better and better as time goes on!



Just because & YAY for eyebrows :p


2 thoughts on “Feelin’ myself a lil :)

  1. This is fantastic news. I’ve just come across your blog from ITSAN after searching for posts on hyperpigmentation and coming across your post on that subject. My skin is dark grey, just like your picture of 09′..

    I’m amazed on how you managed to stay strong whilst dealing with cancer in the past on top of your skin condition. I’ve been reading your blog religiously this whole morning and it is beyond inspiring. Inspiring is actually an understatement. It struck a chord of hope within my mind. Even though I know that healing awaits, I still have these really negative doubts that just eat away at my optimism and blogs like this really knocks it out of the park. I can’t believe everything you’ve had to endure. I know a few hardened gangsters and your story makes them look like pussycats.

    Congratulations for coming so far. This blog helped me renew my mind, faith and soul… Thank you so much for sharing this. Stay beautiful and true

    1. Thank you Mohamed!!! Your message put a huge smile on my face and truly made my day!! I’m so glad that you found my info in the itsan forum and it resonated with you. I’m also thankful that through my progression photos that you can see that your skin will restore to its natural colouring 🙂 it takes some time…but it DOES come back! Just reading how inspired you are from reading my blog and how it gives you a sense of hope brought tears to my eyes. It affirms that by me putting myself out there (which was super scary for me to do lol) I can reach others and be a sense of hope that healing happens and that you’re not in this alone! Your words also give me the strength to keep pushing forward, and I thank YOU for that <3. I woukd love to chat with you via email, I'll look for you on the forums to get your info, or if you just wanna hit me up if you'd like my address is eczema.holistic.healing@gmail.com . Take care Mohamed, stay strong and God bless!

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